The price of rebirth

Chapter 40

Do you like boys?

The understatement of a few words set off an upsurge in my heart.

Liang Kui's tongue moved, and he was about to answer: Of course I don't like it!

How could he like boys? This question is simply a big joke.

Su Yan, who asked this stupid question, was very embarrassed.

But the language sticks to the tongue, the lips and tongue are activated, and the three words 'dislike' are taken for granted, but I just can't say it.

At that moment, he stuttered, his tongue was blocked, and he couldn't utter half a word.

He was startled, his heart was pounding on his chest, and he stared straight at Su Yan with his wide eyes. He thought that as long as he brewed it a bit and let out a breath, he could easily tell Su Yan the answer.

The truth is that he has been brewing for too long, so long that Su Yan fell asleep, so long that he has forgotten what answers he did not answer, leaving great doubts and panic in his heart.

His thoughts were out of control, he began to think wildly, and a bunch of messy thoughts came out.

Will you like boys?He unconsciously considered this question seriously.

Can't say for sure that I don't like it.

Do you like boys?What kind do you like, who is like that?

If you like boys, that boy...

In the dark night, without blinking his eyes, he looked straight at the sleeping Su Yan.

Su Yan sleeps very quietly, with his head slightly tilted, breathing gently, not moving around, not snoring, his sleeping face is softer than that of Su Yan in the daytime, such Su Yan can only think that his facial features are really correct, But don't think of his cool look.

Close at hand, the warm breath sprayed on each other's faces.Liang Kui stared blankly at the magnified face until Su Yan turned around again and turned his back to him.

It was this guy who tossed a question lightly, but tormented him all night.He was so worried that he couldn't sleep, but Su Yan was fine, he slept so soundly, Liang Kui hated him so much, he tried to wake up Su Yan several times to question him, but he didn't do it.

The wave caused by one sentence has long been more than a simple question.

Its contagious power is too great, he originally only wanted to give the most direct answer, but after a night passed, he became worried and had rabbit eyes.He thought about the reason why Su Yan asked this question, and speculated on Su Yan's thoughts.The more I think about it, the less I dare to think deeply.

When he suddenly thought that if one day he and Su Yan became like Qin Yue and Guan Wen and were strongly opposed by their parents, what should he do?

He didn't think of a way to deal with it, but he was startled into a cold sweat by his fantasy.

Before he fell asleep tiredly in the morning, he thought in a daze that when he woke up, it seemed that it was the best choice to pretend that nothing had happened.

However, when I really wake up at noon, the idea before going to bed has long been abandoned.

He asked intensely, wanting to know Su Yan's thoughts.

But Su Yan's ambiguous attitude aroused the anger that he had accumulated all night.Inexplicably very angry, why he couldn't sleep all night, but Su Yan was very calm.

That question, maybe Su Yan really just asked it casually.

Not what he guessed?

But, something is wrong.

Liang Kui was very irritable, he needed to calm down, if he stayed there, he would definitely fight Su Yan.

Dazedly ran to the street, walking in the cold wind, Liang Kui slightly extinguished his anger.

The cold wind calms the mind. Today is the first day of the Lunar New Year. There are many people on the street. It has only snowed in the morning, and the road is wet and slippery.Liang Kui put on his coat and hat, tightened the zipper, put his hands in his pockets, and dangled aimlessly.Unconsciously, he walked for half an afternoon, and when he stopped, he suddenly found himself standing in Lihua Square, where he and Su Yan set off fireworks on New Year's Eve.

Today's square is still lively, there are many small activities on it, young couples walked by holding hands and smiling, and playful children ran around chattering and screaming.

Liang Kuiren stood in the crowd, looking at everything around him.

Men match women, women match men... such a world.

Liang Kui lowered his head and stared blankly at the ground.

It was getting dark soon, and the square was empty, Liang Kui didn't even want to eat dinner, but the evening wind made people very cold, he walked around the street, looked at the passers-by by himself, ate some snacks, and bought a few colorful The balloon looked at it stupidly, then raised its hand and slapped it hard, and the balloon exploded, leaving no one behind.

It was snowing again, and the streets were getting colder and colder.

Liang Kui turned around and caught a glimpse of the Skating City, and walked in it casually.

There are many people in the skating city, all of them are teenagers and girls, the majority are junior high school students to high school students, and a few sporadic college students are conspicuous.

Men and women played tricks with bright laughter, there were boys who took the opportunity to hug girls, and there were girls who were bold and coquettish.

The venue was quite large, Liang Kui was looking at the couples boredly, suddenly two figures slid past his eyes one after the other, two college students, male and female.

One person slipped backwards, the other slipped smoothly, with a distance of two or three meters between them, and the cooperation between the front and back was not bad.Liang Kui watched them change their tricks after skating for a circle, and the two stood hand in hand to glide together.

What a normal scene, they didn't do anything, but Liang Kui turned hot, rubbed his hair, and walked out of the skating city dejectedly.

Su Yan watched TV programs for a while and looked at the clock for a while. It was eight o'clock in the evening and nine o'clock in the evening, but Liang Kui still didn't come back.

Su Yan propped his chin in thought for a while, got up and walked to the bed, opened the curtains and looked out, there was really a person standing under the dim streetlight, and he looked carefully, it was Liang Kui.

Leaning against the street lamp, Liang Kui stared down at the shadow on the ground in a daze.

Su Yan laughed secretly, what a fool, it's a good thing he can do it in such a cold weather.

Liang Kui, with his head down, raised his head and looked at Su Yan's home. When he raised his eyes, he suddenly saw Su Yan by the window.The distance was too far, he couldn't see Su Yan's face clearly, he could only see the general outline, but Liang Kui's heart was beating nervously, he didn't have to doubt that Su Yan could definitely see him.

The two were in a stalemate, one upstairs and the other downstairs, very close, yet very far away.

Standing stupidly until ten o'clock, Su Yan felt that it was enough, so he closed the curtains, turned around and went to take a shower.

When he came out of the shower and opened the door, Liang Kui was standing outside the door.He raised his head and gave Su Yan a meowing look, then lowered his head again without saying a word.

"Have you eaten yet?" Su Yan asked while wiping his hair.

Liang Kui entered the house and went to the kitchen by himself: "I'll cook some cabbage dumplings myself, how about you?"

"I want ten for supper."

Liang Kui nodded and turned on the fire to boil the water.

Su Yan dried his hair and stood casually at the door of the kitchen in his pajamas, quietly waiting for the dumplings to come out of the pan. He took his own portion, ate it in twos and then went into the bedroom to lie down.

"..." Liang Kui gritted his teeth as he looked at the empty living room.

Around eleven o'clock, Liang Kui jumped onto the bed in his pajamas, impatiently pulled Su Yan up, and demanded viciously, "Say something to the fuck! Say something!"

"throat."

"...! Do you think I won't beat you?" Liang Kui was so angry that his body trembled.

Su Yan reached out to pull Liang Kui's hand away, frowned slightly and said, "I don't hate people like Qin Yue, I think that's pretty good."

Su Yan really said it, and Liang Kui had mixed feelings in his heart. He obviously wanted Su Yan to say it, but the fact that he was about to reveal it made people excited and scared.

Seeing him startled, Su Yan smiled.

Leaning over and kissing Liang Kui's lips, Liang Kui was taken aback by surprise, and Su Yan had already retreated before tasting it carefully.

"The matter of Qin Yue opened a door for me. I have never liked anyone. You are the first."

It was another sleepless night, Liang Kui returned to City A the next day with red eyes.When he left, Su Yan was still sleeping. He wanted to say something to Su Yan, but he didn't say anything in the end.

Why is there a kind of heart-pounding feeling that makes people have no time to be happy, but is covered by the darkness of extinction.

His heart skipped a beat for Su Yan's words, but what followed was unbearable.

If he wants to like a boy, he likes Su Yan.

In fact, there is no if.

He only needs a simple sentence, as long as he kisses back, he can embrace this heartbeat.

He thought, almost couldn't resist, and really did that.

Once it starts, the future will never be restored.

Whether it's Qin Yue or him, no one can help anyone else.

School starts on the eighth day of the new year.

Liang Kui and Qin Yue didn't come.

Day after day passed, and Su Yan's seat at the same table remained vacant.

Su Yan's mind wandered a lot, and he often looked out of the window.

He remembered how panicked Liang Kui's absence had made him at this time before, and every day felt like years.How courageous what he said to Liang Kui that day, no one knew that he was trembling in his heart, and he was also afraid of being rejected, afraid of being a stranger in the future.However, as the days passed, Liang Kui never showed up.He really regretted it, and he should have said nothing if he knew it earlier.If Liang Kui never came again, it would be more terrifying than being strangers.He went to the telephone booth to call Liang Kui's mobile phone again and again, but the phone was always turned off there.He actively went to the head teacher to ask about Liang Kui's news, but the head teacher didn't know much.He began to despair, Liang Kui really won't come.

"Su Yan."

Su Yan was looking out the window and lost in memory, when suddenly disturbed, he couldn't help frowning.

Turning around, it turned out to be Chen Wanwan, and she could guess why she was looking for him without asking too much.

"Is something wrong?" Su Yan was careless.

Chen Wanwan lowered her head and whispered, hesitantly said, "Liang Kui... Has he changed schools?"

Like a person, regardless of gender, that feeling is the same between anyone.

Whether it was him, Chen Wanwan, or those who secretly liked Liang Kui, they were all worried and disappointed because Liang Kui hadn't returned for a long time.

Su Yan didn't speak, just shook his head to show that he didn't know.

Chen Wanwan bit her lip, thinking that he didn't want to talk, and asked again: "You have a good relationship with him, so it's impossible not to know? Why don't you call and ask?"

Su Yan took out his mobile phone and dialed Liang Kui's number, and held the mobile phone to Chen Wanwan's ear. The mechanical female voice inside made Chen Wanwan's expression drop to the bottom.

Chen Wanwan didn't ask any more questions, but turned around and left.

The Lantern Festival is here in the blink of an eye, and the school is on holiday that day.After the Lantern Festival, the school really starts.

In the Cloud Festival, Ewha Square once again held a fireworks show and lantern show.

Liang Kui always appears rashly when Su Yan is unprepared, giving him great surprises and touches.Liang Kui on New Year's Eve and Liang Kui on Lantern Festival are all Liang Kui that he has not forgotten.

When that Su Yan was almost in despair, Liang Kui re-entered the door.

From then on, set foot on the road of no return.

"I thought you wouldn't come back." Su Yan murmured dazedly while holding the fireworks.

Liang Kui, who has cut his hair short again, seems to have a new look. He has faded away from the melancholy line of bitterness and hatred, and restored his usual smile.

Liang Kui flicked the lighter and lowered his head with a smile: "I really thought about it."

As he spoke, Liang Kui raised his head to look at Su Yan's appearance reflected by the fireworks, feeling guilty in his heart, "I'm sorry. I am indecisive and indecisive, mother-in-law, look at me, after thinking for so long, I still come back here." Pry open the skull to modify a few brain meridians.Leaving City C, forget about Su Yan from now on, and never have anything to do with Su Yan again. The distance between City C and City A is enough for the two people to never meet each other for the rest of their lives.Only this is the best. The relationship that hasn't started ends as soon as possible, so that you won't wait until it's too late and cry to death when you want to separate. This is really the best choice.Treat him well, treat Su Yan well, treat his family well, and even treat the society and the country... A man and a woman hug each other on the street, and no one will look at them differently.The two men went to try it, and they didn't know how many eyes they would get. Standing on the street seemed to be dirty.

He deliberately didn't go to school, and his parents didn't talk about him. He stayed in City A with great fanfare, looking for friends and brothers everywhere to have fun.But as the days passed, the happiness in my heart became less and less, more and more empty.

He wasn't having fun and wanted to go back to school, really wanted to, couldn't wait to go back.Whether it's singing or dancing or being a woman, nothing compares to going back to class.Even if there is no time to pee after class, just sit in the classroom...

"Why do you want to come back?"

Liang Kui didn't smile, he made people feel serious like this, he buttoned the lighter, and said when the fireworks exploded: "I thought about it too much, and finally I just missed you." He has had many girlfriends, and said with a smile Lots of sweet talk.For the first time tonight, I know what kind of mood it is to say "sweet words".It turns out that when you say that kind of thing, you don't really need to use your brain, and what's more, you don't want to laugh at all when you say it.

Why do you want to come back.

The reason is too simple, just reluctant.

Treating Su Yan as a stranger and never seeing each other again, he couldn't do it.

He had a showdown with Qin Yue during the holiday, and took Qin Yue to relax as much as possible. He asked Qin Yue why he didn't cut off contact with Guan Wen.

Qin Yue said at the time: "For me, breaking off relationship with Guan Wen is the same unbearable pain as breaking off relationship with my parents. If I leave my parents, I will regret it for the rest of my life. If I leave Guan Wen, I will also regret it. I regret my whole life. If I had other choices, why would I torture so many people? I have no way out. I just hope that, let time change, maybe one day they will forgive me. Or... one day my relationship with Guan Wen really will come to an end."

After the Lantern Festival, school officially starts, and Liang Kui and Qin Yue both return, arousing warm welcome from everyone.

"Damn, I thought you guys were going to transfer schools, and you didn't even tell us if you were playing secretly. Liang Kui, do you know how much Su Yan misses you? He looks so hard at the window every day that he almost becomes a husband-wife stone. How many beauties silently sigh for you !" Lin Qiang complained dissatisfied.

Liang Kui chuckled, and glanced awkwardly at Su Yan who was silent.

"Qin Banhua, darling, why did you lose so much weight in the past year? Didn't you eat during the New Year?" Lin Qiang clasped Qin Yue's wrist, so thin that he was frightened.

Qin Yue was taken aback: "Are you thin? I didn't notice."

"You're so skinny! To be honest, it's dangerous for you to look like this. You must eat well, otherwise you won't get well if you get sick." Lin Qiang sincerely cared.

When Lin Qiang yelled, Liang Kui and Su Yan looked at Qin Yue.

Don't say don't pay attention, just say it and startle.

Liang Kui gritted his teeth and said in a muffled voice, "Eat well."

"I eat three meals a day on time, really." Qin Yue defended innocently.

"Then you must be thinking too much." Lin Qiang knocked him on the head.

Su Yan and Liang Kui didn't speak. They both knew what happened to Qin Yue. It wasn't a physical problem at all, but a mental problem.Heart disease must be treated with heart medicine, what is the use of eating.There was nothing they could do but remain silent.

After class, there is only the teacher's impassioned voice in the classroom.

It was a sunny day today, the sunlight from outside the window shone in, leaving a golden trace on the desks of the two of them.

Su Yan's pen reflected light in the sunlight, and the white notebook was covered with beautiful and unrestrained handwriting.He wrote for a while, put down the pen and looked up to watch the teacher lecture.

The hand that was dropped casually was gently held.

Su Yan tilted his head slightly and squinted at Liang Kui. Liang Kui happened to look over and smiled at him.