The movie king cheats every day

Chapter 62

The last time Qin Muqiu came to this city was the Spring Festival of the year before last. Although the climate here is almost the same as in China, and the family always eats Chinese food, Qin Muqiu returned to China after staying for less than a week.

An adult who has been independent for too long is like a beast that has its own territory. Returning to the parents' home is not like returning home, but like visiting.

The car drove him and Da Xuan on the empty road, Qin Muqiu did not speak after getting in the car, but kept his eyes on the roadside signs.He recognized that this was the way home.

"How long has it been since you came back?" asked the man driving.

"I came back before the Spring Festival the year before last. I was supposed to come last year, but there was an accident at the airport." Qin Muqiu said.

The man next to him sighed and said, "Your dad has been trying to cure your throat, but I didn't expect you to just say hello."

Qin Muqiu didn't know how to answer the words, his heart was still hanging on the ground, he swallowed nervously, and asked, "Uncle, don't we go to the hospital?"

The man frowned, then looked at the road ahead, tried his best to calm his voice and said: "One hour before you received your mother's call, your father suffered a cerebral hemorrhage, and the rescue failed. It's customary in China to set up a mourning hall at home, waiting for you to come to see me for the last time. Mu Qiu, you have to mourn."

Mourning, this is probably the most sympathetic yet least humane of all Chinese words.

Qin Muqiu struggled to stay awake, his vision instantly seemed to be covered with a thick layer of mist, he turned his head and looked out the window, but only saw a mist.What it meant to lose his father, he had never thought about it before, and it was pointless to think about it now.

The car stopped in front of the house, Da Xuan got out of the car with red eyes and opened the door for him.His thoughts were in a mess, and he didn't even realize that he was crying so badly, he just let Da Xuan help him to go home by instinct.

Because of his arrival, sporadic weeping sounded again in the mourning hall, Qin Muqiu's eyes were empty, only the coffin facing the door.He approached step by step, and finally saw the appearance of his late father clearly, and it was not much different from before. If he changed the place, he would really think that the other party was just asleep.

Qin Muqiu stood there dumbly, at that moment he suddenly realized what life and separation are.The feeling that he had only heard of but never experienced before, because of him, his parents, Yu Yan and even the big noise had all experienced it, and now it was finally his turn.

No one can escape this heartbreaking feeling in life.

After an unknown amount of time, someone behind him supported his shoulder and said, "Go and see your mother, she has been waiting for you to come back."

After Qin Muqiu was reminded, he just woke up like a dream, managed to find a sliver of rationality to sort out his emotions, and then went to his mother's room.Qin's mother had already passed the most disintegrating period, and now she looked relatively calm, but when she met Qin Muqiu, she couldn't help crying while hugging him.

After crying bitterly, Qin Muqiu finally calmed down a lot.The man who went to the airport to pick up Qin Muqiu earlier helped take care of the funeral affairs as Qin's father's friend. Out of respect, he asked Qin Muqiu his thoughts on some details. Qin Muqiu had never experienced these things, so he didn't raise any opposing opinions.

The funeral came to an end soon because of Qin Muqiu's arrival. After saying goodbye to the body, it was the cremation and burial ceremony.Qin Muqiu felt like a dream from the beginning to the end, although the pain was real, but when he returned home after finishing everything, he still felt it was like a dream.

Suddenly, he didn't have a father.

After late at night, the big noise fell asleep.Qin Muqiu took a look at Qin's mother and saw that she was sleeping soundly, so he went to the study quietly.

Qin's father is an academic person, and there are various professional-related books in the study.Qin Muqiu had respected his father's study since he was a child, so when he grew up, he had his own study, which contained miscellaneous books to relieve boredom, even academic books related to acting, which he rarely collected.

Nowadays, things are different, and when Qin Muqiu looked at the rows of titles on the bookshelf that he once kept at a distance from, the feeling in his heart was quite different from before.It seems that those strange and boring words are now endowed with different meanings because of his father's death.

Qin Muqiu looked from row to row on the bookshelf, and his gaze finally settled on the third row of the bookshelf to the left. It is in a moderate position, and usually the books that Qin's father has read recently are placed there.

His eyes froze suddenly, and he saw a book with a familiar name. The book was about the study of homosexual culture. Although the content was very academic, it was easy to understand. When Qin Muqiu learned about his sexual orientation many years ago, he once I've looked for it.

Then he found that the contents of the next few books were similar, so he took out each one and flipped through them. The books were very new, and two of them obviously hadn't had time to read.

Qin Muqiu stood in the study with mixed emotions in his heart.Why did his father start to study this aspect recently? Qin Muqiu can conclude that it must be related to him without thinking about it, and his father knows his sexual orientation.

It must be during the time when I was sick, my father noticed something.Then the other party had a sudden cerebral hemorrhage, could it be related to this?Qin Muqiu couldn't think about it carefully, but felt an indescribable block in his heart, which made his reluctance and longing turn into shame.

Qin Muqiu thought to himself, his son is really worthless.

That night, after he returned to his room, he couldn't fall asleep.When it was almost dawn, he took out his mobile phone and called Yu Yan. It should be afternoon in China, but Yu Yan's mobile phone indicated that it was turned off.After hanging up the phone, Qin Muqiu opened his eyes and waited until dawn.

The breakfast was made by the aunt at home. Even though Qin Muqiu had no appetite, he reluctantly ate some in consideration of his mother's mood.During this period, Qin's mother said some interesting things about Qin's father, and Qin Muqiu felt uncomfortable in every possible way.

After breakfast, Qin's mother went to the balcony to water the flowers and bask in the sun as usual.Qin Muqiu hesitated for a moment and followed, but he just poked there blankly but didn't know how to speak, he couldn't just ask "Is my dad mad at me?"

"I heard from Da Xuan that you are still filming there, don't worry about me, you can go back tomorrow." Mother Qin said while watering the flowers: "Come back to accompany me when the filming is over."

Qin Muqiu looked at his mother's obviously haggard side face, and blurted out: "Mom, I won't be filming in the future, how about going abroad to accompany you?"

Qin's mother didn't seem to take his words seriously, she forced a smile, and said: "Don't talk stupidly, your father and I love to watch you film, if you don't film, what are you looking forward to. Besides, other things You can't do it either, if you were willing to go abroad for a long time, you would have come here a long time ago."

"Then how about I take you back to China?" Qin Muqiu said.

"Let's talk about it later, finish filming your movie first, don't delay others because of your own affairs." Qin's mother finished watering the flowers and went to sit on the recliner beside her. Seeing this, Qin Muqiu hurriedly took the thin blanket cover each other.

The sunlight came in through the clean glass, Qin Muqiu turned his head and looked at it, and his eyes were dazzled, but Qin's mother enjoyed it, and closed her eyes under the sunlight, as if intending to catch up on sleep, Qin Muqiu hurriedly left quietly.

The whole crew is still running, Qin Muqiu is the protagonist, and it is impossible to be absent for too long, so he returned to China before his father's first seven days.

Before leaving, he went to the cemetery again.Because he held back some words in his heart and wanted to talk to his father, he asked Da Xuan to wait outside, and went in with a bouquet of flowers himself.

Passing through the rows of tombstones, Qin Muqiu felt that he and his father were really getting farther and farther this time. Even if he ran wildly, it was impossible to catch up with the other party.

For some reason, he suddenly remembered a poem called "Nostalgia". There is a line in the poem that seems to be "When I grow up, Nostalgia is a short grave, my father is there, and I am here."Perhaps the growth of most people is revealed unexpectedly with the death of their parents.

But, how can I show that I have grown up, Qin Muqiu thought as he walked in the cemetery, in order to comfort his father's spirit in heaven, he forced himself to be a "normal person" who married a wife and had children?Or did he choose to die alone in order not to embarrass his father?

While thinking wildly, Qin Muqiu turned a corner and came to Father Qin's tomb.I saw a bunch of white chrysanthemums on it, it seemed that someone had been here before Qin Muqiu, but Qin Muqiu couldn't guess the identity of the other party.

Beside Baiju was a hand-folded paper crane. Qin Muqiu picked it up and looked at it. The paper was very casual. It seemed that the visitor had stayed for a long time and folded it casually during the period. He didn't take it away with him.

Qin Muqiu put the paper crane back, his eyes fell on the black and white photo of his father, and he couldn't stop his nose for a moment.Because of an accident before the new year, he failed to fulfill the wish of the two elders to celebrate the new year together, and now he knows that his father already knew his sexual orientation before he left, so he feels that being his son is a failure.

Looking back on his life of more than 20 years, Qin Muqiu felt that as a son, he didn't seem to have anything worthy of praise. In this case, no matter how successful his career is, what's the point.

Qin Muqiu stayed in front of his father's tomb for two hours, and the questions he hadn't figured out finally became more entangled.He bid farewell to Qin's mother with a stomach full of entanglements, and left this land that was extremely strange to him.

After boarding the plane, he has been sleeping with the blindfold on, and he didn't even remember to see the person sitting next to him.On the way, he was a little thirsty and wanted to ask the flight attendant for water. After taking off the blindfold, he turned his head and saw Yu Yan sitting next to him.

At that moment, Qin Muqiu didn't think about anything, but clearly felt that his empty heart was suddenly filled with something, and there was no longer the feeling of wandering.

The author has something to say: continue tomorrow~ the countdown should start~