naruto-story Chapter 483 I am willing to give you another chance
Chapter 483 I am willing to give you another chance
He added, "A year ago, I just wanted to live a good life, calculate and measure what others have done to me, and then repay the same contribution. I thought that this would mean not owing each other anything. Now I feel that to the people I love and the people who love me, It doesn’t matter if you owe a little, there are no such calculations in love.”
"A year ago, when I first arrived at King Jin's Mansion, I was ready to leave at any time. I thought if they didn't treat me well, I would leave. Now, I don't want to leave. Even if they don't treat me well, I will try to let them go. They should be nicer to me."
"A year ago, I would not have helped Zhu Jinke clean up the mess, nor would I have risked my life to go to Pingzhou City, nor would I have been proud of myself and forced you to get close to me."
"A year ago, I felt that love was the most unnecessary thing in the world. Now I feel that love is also very important. If there is one, I will try my best to fight for it. If not, I will try my best to survive."
"A year ago, I thought what Ah Qi said about not being in love meant that you couldn't like men and don't trust men. Now I think what Ah Qi meant was to pursue your true heart and not lose yourself, but you should also pursue it bravely, because..."
"Because this pursuit itself is for myself. I will not take advantage of you or tie you to the bed, but I will also tell you that I want to be with you and that I am happy with you."
"you……"
Wen Yan was stunned for a moment.
Jin Yan held his face close at hand, "Today I already know why you are avoiding me. You brought me to the palace because I am helpful to you, and you don't want to do any harm to me by staying away from me. Now I I understand, so I am willing to give you another chance, but only this time. If you reject me again, I will separate from you no matter how painful it is."
She said it very seriously. Even when tears burst out again when she said the word separation, she bit her lip to prevent herself from crying.
She felt sorry for him, and felt distressed when she thought of his lifeless appearance in bed, so she was willing to hide her feelings and wait for him to think things through.
Some things cannot be hidden, and she knows she will find the reason. In fact, even if there is no Celestial Master, she will soon know the reason. Those words are not easy to learn, but she can slowly think about it.
She is not a stupid person.
Yuan Jing said that she would have an impact on Wen Yan. Before going to Pingzhou City, she was flustered and Yuan Jing also looked solemn. But after she left, although Pingzhou City had its ups and downs, there were no major disasters.
Later, when Yuan Jing returned to Buzhou Mountain, he seemed to have found the reason and was very satisfied with their stay together.
Yuan Jing is Wen Yan's master, and he most wants to see Wen Yan get well.
Jin Yan guessed that Wen Yan should also know something at this time. The re-bound ancient book was missing two pages and was taken away by Wen Yan.
He didn't want to know the truth himself, and wanted to disappear quietly where she couldn't see, but she didn't allow it.
How could there be such a tyrannical person who gave her a grand fireworks show and made her want to escape when she was dazzled by the flowers.
"Doesn't it matter even if you don't live to be a hundred years old? Doesn't it matter even if you only have a short life?"
His heart was trembling, and his hands were trembling as well, as if he was trying his best to ask this question, because he knew that her greatest wish was to live a long life, so he was full of timidity.
His Ayan deserves to realize his wish.
Jin Yan smiled, "It doesn't matter. I only lived for 25 years in my previous life, and I lived with trepidation every year in my memory. I never had any desperate preference, never received sincere and enthusiastic love, and never had anyone. Put me first, so I don’t know what it’s like to be partial.”
"The reason why I have been able to be stable and self-possessed since my rebirth is because I sealed my heart away. I didn't dare to embrace love. But now I have tasted the taste of preference. It's like encountering light in the dark. I just want to hold on tight and never let go. , even if you can only live to 25 years old, that’s enough, really.”
In fact, the past year is enough.
This year was enough to heal all the dry wounds in her past and make her dry heart full again.
"But……"
"You also have preferences now. Everyone in Prince Jin's Mansion prefers you, and your friends also prefer you. Ayan is living a good life now."
"It wouldn't be good without you."
Jin Yan shook her head stubbornly.
Wen Yan looked at her blankly, not yet digesting the shock in his heart.
"I'm not that good."
His voice was obscure. If he was really that good, he wouldn't have been so obsessed with her in the first place, and he wouldn't have stayed by her side.
He is also selfish.
I thought I would accompany her until I was 25, and find a lonely early morning...
But she didn't expect that she would also have such an impact on her own destiny, and it would affect her life.
How can I bear to prevent her from lasting happiness?
Wasn't the original intention to make her dream come true?
"You just said that you are not a god. Even gods sometimes fail in their duties, let alone you."
"In my heart, you are the best."
Her eyes were shining, and the words she spoke gradually dispelled his doubts.
He smiled, pretending to be relaxed, his hands on the side were still trembling, and he confirmed again, "Ayan, if you decide, there will be no room for regrets in the future. You changed your dream within a year, and there are still decades to come. "
Why would you want to separate from her?I don’t want to separate even if I die!
But if it meant her life, he wouldn't dare.
I'm afraid that she won't be able to realize her dream, that she will be resentful, that she won't have enough time to enjoy it, and that she will have many things to accomplish in the future.
In fact, what she fears most is that in the long years, what should she do if one day she gets tired of him and wants her life back?
He no longer has the ability to give it back.
He was living by borrowing her life and was consuming her life, like a dove occupying a magpie's nest.
She would definitely not blame him for being so kind, but he couldn't see her having regrets and wished he could make up for all the regrets for her.
"So long?"
Jin Yan muttered, interrupting his thoughts.
To be honest, she didn't expect that there would still be decades. .